last night I dreamed I had tamed a bull, I rode it every where. Everyone was asking me to train their horse and such, but if I rode a horse, my bull got really mad and started destroying things. occasionally it said things, and it understood everything I said too.

..........*sigh* I've been smoking to much lately.........

swatara starts tonight... first, dinner with david... why? I don't understand what is with him... appearing and dissapearing from my life every few months. making me dream of his kisses and the feel of his arms..... but never committing............. he's gonna play me again.... and it sucks because I'll let him..... its like I'm his cello... resting my neck on his shoulder while he makes me sound beautiful...fucking cellists...

this was kinda personal for a DA entrie... whatever